The returning . . . the Cove at Killian Knob

misc dale and kat etc 147So, my friends. I have been gone from here a while. Other things and people and places grabbed hold of me, of my attention, of my time. But it has all been for the most wonderful beautiful of reasons: I have returned to my Cove at Killian Knob. Home. I am Home. I came back almost a year to the day I drove away from my Cove–thinking I may never be able to return. But my Cove was not about to let me go. My mountains knew I’d return. The creek shouts out to me–Welcome Home, Wild Wolf Woman Kathryn.

misc dale and kat etc 223I had to pinch myself every day for the first few weeks, and then, now a little over a month since my return, I at last do not fear I will awaken from some gorgeously warm dream. It is real. It is tangible. As real as my Crow cawing outside my window–he, Big Boy, tells me all the secrets to the cove; all the things I missed while I was gone from here. Each morning, and evening, I toss over the rail to the ground below some tidbits for him to eat, whistle for him, and there he comes, sailing on stretched wing, oily black and handsome. He now will, as he used to do, sit on the branch of the Tulip Poplar and watch me as I sit on the porch drinking my coffee, or maybe later my wine–at first, he did not trust that I would be here to stay and he was shy. Now? Now he knows. Just as other critters know I am here to stay: the coon, the squirrel, the bird, the rabbit, the turkey–all of them. Even the ones who hide and watch: the bobcat, the coyote, the bear, the deer.

misc dale and kat etc 170As always before, I turn my head slightly to the left and what fills my eyes is wild beauty. I glance down at my hands as they type upon my old trusty laptop, turn my head back slightly to the left, then gaze around my writing room, my library, my study, where someone special turned it into a warm and beautiful sanctuary with which to write and read and dream. I am filling my little log house back up with my Things–yes the knickknacks and doo-dads and furry throws and rugs and lamps that golden glow the rooms, but also bone and rock and bark and stump and twig and feather. It is as if I am in some mystical movie where the character steps from one realm of noise and confusion and crowds and discombobulation into an enchanted world: she closes the door behind her and doesn’t look back, for that near-year she spent away from her Cove was only an enterlude, only a miniscule slice of a luscious pie–she ate a tiny bite of that miniscule slice of pie and it did not taste of anything at all–now, here, the rest of the pie coats her tongue, slides down her throat with a slight tang and burn, and fills her belly–she is satiated now. That is how it is. And more.

misc dale and kat etc 094I did not come alone. Who knew? Who knew what life takes from us and gives to us. Even when we do not want it. Even when we fight with claws sharpened by what we think is best for us, never knowing that we do not always know what is best for us. Sometimes people come back into your life after many many years and you think, “Why, where have you been all these years?” and they say, “I was going to ask you the same thing.” And then you both laugh at the absurdity of it all. At the luck and timing of it all. At the luscious luscious wonder of it all. And there curled beside you is a little bitty dog. All your proclamations of “Never again! Never! I cannot bear to take into my life another sweet creature and have it die. No! NO!” and the little dog curled warm beside you huffs in his sleep, and if awakened would look up at you with his wonky teeth and you would Know. You’d just Know that he knows what he has done with you and to you and for you. And what his man has done to you and with you and for you. What both of these Living Beings have pulled you kicking and screaming into what you never ever believed in; what you scoffed at; what you considered ellusive and illusive and never ever for you.

We often proclaim not to believe in the very things we most want.

Love is the greatest of things. Love is your granndaughter. Love is your son. Love is your family. Love is your friends. Love is what comes into your life when you do not want it or need it or expect it. Love sneaks up and smacks you upside your head and then laughs at the amazed fearing wonderment that makes you slack-jawed with surprise. It is not to be ignored. Who knew? Who knew?

misc dale and kat etc 066So I sit here, my good friends–those of you still here; those of you who have always been here; those of you who drop by; those of you who wonder by accident or fate if you believe in those things and I do not and I do; those of you who read everything I write and I am amazed by you–I sit here and I am humbled by everything. Everything. EVERYTHING. I am humbled and grateful and beside myself.

I am not lonely anymore.

I am not an island.

I am writing again.

I am here. I am Home. I am back to my little log house at Killian Knob in Western North Carolina Smoky Mountains.

Life is a circle that we either complete or we do not. Or we go round and round it faster and faster until we are so dizzy we do not See anymore. What do you want? How do you want to travel your circle? Ends meeting and then begin again.

(well, look below at the previous post they link to – it was when I had to leave here — ha! what a coincidence)

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18 thoughts on “The returning . . . the Cove at Killian Knob

  1. It is so nice to see you in contentment mode again. The words are flowing so much easier. I no longer feel the strain, the anguish. May the Muse of words be your ever present companion.

  2. Ooohhhhh…at last! I am so happy for you! You sound so good, so happy. So much better than a year ago. My journey is ongoing, I love my little home, I’m getting there. What a difference a year makes!

  3. My heart is swelling with joy for you. Truthfully, I was so worried about you. Like I said before, Shift Happens. And so it has again. A huge blessing for you!! Enjoy home again.

  4. Soo happy for you and to you being back to where your SOUL can be at peace and you can let the words flow again.. Blessings to you being back “AT HOME”.

  5. I am SO happy for you, Kat! Much love and hugs. Janna Qualmanwriter, mom, possibilitarian stop by my blog: WOMAN, DETERMINEDor visit me on Facebook: hereor on Twitter @writerjannadonn “Do your little bit of good where you are; it’s those little bits of good put together that overwhelm the world.” — Desmond Tutu From: Kathryn Magendie To: jannawrites@yahoo.com Sent: Thursday, June 4, 2015 12:11 PM Subject: [New post] The returning . . . the Cove at Killian Knob #yiv1862157080 a:hover {color:red;}#yiv1862157080 a {text-decoration:none;color:#0088cc;}#yiv1862157080 a.yiv1862157080primaryactionlink:link, #yiv1862157080 a.yiv1862157080primaryactionlink:visited {background-color:#2585B2;color:#fff;}#yiv1862157080 a.yiv1862157080primaryactionlink:hover, #yiv1862157080 a.yiv1862157080primaryactionlink:active {background-color:#11729E;color:#fff;}#yiv1862157080 WordPress.com | katmagendie posted: “So, my friends. I have been gone from here a while. Other things and people and places grabbed hold of me, of my attention, of my time. But it has all been for the most wonderful beautiful of reasons: I have returned to my Cove at Killian Knob. Home. I am” | |

  6. I am so happy for you to be back home. The love and passion you feel for your place comes through so strongly in your writing. Thank you for sharing with us. Oh, and your little bitty wonky toothed dog is just too cute!!

  7. I couldnt be happier for you that you’re home, Kat. Home. Isn’t that one of the best words?! Seems that it’s been a long and winding road but that it has led you back to the place that feeds your soul makes the journey worthwhile. So nice to read your blog posts again too!

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